Thursday, June 30, 2011

Testimony #15: worth of souls on youtube

Hello,
so this didn't go up yesterday, but it was written yesterday. There was something wrong with the blog, it just said "bad request" couldn't do nothing...but anyway....


Hello,
So I need to get my butt off of youtube. That place is addicting....and it's hard to stay off when your sick and are all laggy....and laggy is not a word....I'm ok with it.
But yes, I'm going to attribute my funky feeling that I have right now on my lack of sleep. I feel funky...I feel crippled. I feel like I'm crippled and unsatisfied. hmm, I think I'm going to try and get to bed at 10:30 every night and see how it affects my testimony. I bet it will improve.
But yea, I still know all the things that I have been mentioning. I would also like to add that the Lord loves everyone of us.  I know that the worth of EVERY soul is great. I know that we are all cut from the same cloth and there is no good reason to think less of anyone. I know that God looks at all of us the same; He sees us all as His children. I know we are His children, I know that we have godly potential.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen. 


yup :)

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

testimony #14: The Spirit

Hello,
So I just got done with Temple Tuesday, followed by some sweet guitar-ing. It has been a good night :)
And I felt the spirit :) the spirit is awesome. It totally guides you and things.
It is a wonderful companion to have in your life. I know that when I'm heedful to the spirit, good things happen to me :)
I'm trying to think of an example, but I can only think of a time when I didn't listen to it...I mean I do listen to the spirit, I guess it's just not memorable enough for me, how sad it that? (oh right, very sad...)
Um, OK! I know,
So this is from a wonderful time when I was moved out and on my own (good times)
I was at church after a meeting just chilling, and I saw one of my friends. And by friends I means someone whose name I knew and we talked maybe a few times. (cuz I'm popular like that) And I'm like a really shy person and I was all quiet and stuff  and didn't talk to many people. And if I did know you, I would smile and stuff if we made eye contact or whatever, but typically I didn't make any efforts to make myself known or anything.
Anyway something was telling me to invite her over, so I did. I asked her how she was doing and I asked "Can I make you dinner this week?" and she was like "Yea" or some sorta similar verbiage.
And then she told me that she was having a hard week and she really appreciated the offer, and she needed it and stuff. So yea, I followed the spirit and helped someone out :) and then totally got a cool friend over it :) we had a good time and talked and we both helped each other through some things :) and I would never have had that experience if I hadn't listened to the spirit....the end...
I know that lives are blessed when we listen to the promptings that are guiding us. I know that the spirit will bring out awesome things in ourselves and will help us in ways we don't understand. I know that Heavenly Father lives and loves us. I know that Jesus is the Christ and I know that He died for out sins. I know that we are all children of God. I know that the church is true, the scriptures are true and other things are also true.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

until later :)

Monday, June 27, 2011

Testimony #13: Temples

Check it out Internet! it's totally not 2 in the morning right now!!! Totally proud of myself :)
but anyway....I would like to bare my testimony about temples.
I love temples, I love them :)
The temple is a great place to go if you're looking for answers, peace or an overall good feeling.
I've tried to go to the temple weekly, and I can tell you there has been a difference in my life for it.
I'm happier. I can handle my trials better. I have such a good perspective on things. I know that these changes have come about through temple attendance.
I was talking to my friend who comes with me on Temple Tuesday, it had been a while since we went, and it was very apparent. She was mentioning how tired she was, going to the temple helped her energy!
I was noticing that I was a lot grumpier, my patience was shorter, I didn't get along with people as I normally did, I felt sadder and a lot less confident.
I know that the temples are a house of God. I know that they bring about many blessings. I know that it is SUCH a blessing that I have so many temples around me. I know that the work that is done in the temple is sacred and pure and awesome. I know that temples bring us closer to God, that they help bring us to our full potential.
And as always I would like to bare my testimony that our Redeemer lives, He died for our sins. I know that God is our Father. He know us, He wants the best for us. I know He loves us, even when we can't feel that.
I know that the church is true. I know that Joseph Smith was a true prophet. I know that Thomas S Monson is a true prophet today.  I am so very grateful to have the gospel in my life. I know, and I've seen, the ways it has effected me for the better.
I say these things humbly in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

Bye now :)

Testimony #12: Attonement

Hello,
So I'm hitting a bit of a lag in this. If you havn't noticed I've been slacking and been posting quite early.
This makes for short and half-butted testimonies. I need to make time for this. I came home from church today and turned on my laptop in plans of coming straight here, posting, maybe getting on facebook and being done. Instead I watched you tube for a long time, and now it's 2 in the morning. just so ya know, I have 1 o'clock church, and I got home maybe around 5, and I didn't spend all night in my room, because like I ate and stuff and some other stuff that took me off my computer, so yea, It was excessive, but not as bad as it sounds.
wow, I just did more excusing than I did testifying for the last 3 nights, that's pretty lame of me...
but anyway.... Hmm what do I have a testimony about....everything. Hymns, I know that hymns are a great sorce of inpiration and can really bring the spirit into your life. Whenever I get afraid or uncomfortable I always sing "I know that my Redeemer lives." one of my favorite hymns is "come thou fount of many blessings" in the chorus is probably my favorite verbage: prone to wander Lord I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love. Here's my heart oh take and seal it. Seal it for thy courts above.
I love it :) I love it because I can really feel that in my life, It is a constant fight to stand up for what you believe in, to do what is right. I am NOT perfect, I wander, I sin. And I do love my Heavenly Father very much... So in that song when it says "here's my hear, oh take and seal it" I do want to turn my heart to my Lord. Guess I didn't tonight and made youtube a priority....I guess I have some repenting to do.
It's a good thing that I have a testimony of repentance and the attonment. I know that we can obtain forgivness through repentance. We can come unto Christ again. We can be forgiven, we can forsake the sins that once confounded us. I want to share this experience...
It came time for me to repent. It was for something that I have struggled with for a long time, and I was upset I let myself fall into the destructive pattern once again.  I came home on my lunch break from work and I started praying.  I didn't want to pray, something was trying to hold me back; satan, shame, I don't know but it was dificult to get the words to come out.
Once I did manage to talk to my Heavenly Father I started crying, weeping, wailing. I was beside myself. It was no bueno. As I was praying I thought of "Oh the wailing and nashing of teeth" and I knew that I was feeling that feeling. I was truley feeling Godly sorrow.  after several minutes of pleading and appologizing, I ended my prayer and opened my eyes to find that my nose had been bleeding and I bled over my hands. And as I was praying I had been touching my face a bunch, I looked like a hot mess! it was on my bed too. So, I had to clean myself up.
I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, (hot mess) and as I looked at the blood on my hands and face I thought of the Saviors blood that attoned for my sins. I realized His love for me and I knew that I would be able to be forgiven.
I started to wash myself off with a white rag, and as I was washing I thought "Though your sins be as scarlet, they will be white as snow" and I knew that I could be clean again. And in that monent I again, began to feel God's love for me even more. I felt my Saviors love. I knew that I still had a chance to return to live with him again. And I knew I never wanted to forget that feeling.
I still know, my internet brothers and sisters, that my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ died for me. He suffered for my sins. I know that no matter how far we think we've gone, no matter what mistakes we've made, how many times we've made them, OUR FATHER STILL LOVES US!! He still wants us to feel peace and KNOW that He loves us. That we are His children.  I know that we can be forgiven, we can get back on the right track, we can better ourselves and He will never turn His back from us. We will ALWAYS be welcomed back with open arm.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen

ps. baring your testimony is AWESOME!!!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Testimony #11:

hello,
i know that i have the oportunity to live with my Heavanly Father again.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen

Saturday, June 25, 2011

testimony #10:

Just because these are short, doesn't make them any less true. and I know that it is helping me, even this little bit.
I need to make time for this, and it needs to not be at 3 in the morning. I know that if I get over these challenges I will be blessed for it. I know that when you do what is necessary you can change for the better. I really feel that sharing these things is making me better because I have a better perspective on my day to day. The spirit in your life is a beautiful thing to have. It offers so much to  you if you listen. I know that if I am faithful I will be able to see blessings in my life. I've seen and felt them in my life before.
this doesn't feel like much of a testimony, and I'm sick and out of it and I should have gone to bed hours ago...
But I still know that my Savior suffered for my sins. I know that my Heavenly Father knows my name. I know he wants the best for me and I know I have the ability to reach the potential he sees in me.
I am so very grateful to have the gospel in my life and that I can do what is asked and needed of me in order to grow.
I thankfully say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen

Thursday, June 23, 2011

testimony #9: I know...

I know that my Redeemer lives. I know God loves me,.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Testimony #8: it's a shortie

What's up everyone
So, I'm tired, and sick, and I should have done this sooner.
But a short testimony is just as testimony as a longer one of them.
yup.
Jesus is the Christ. He loved and saved us all. God the Father lives and watches over us. Our prophets past and present are men of God. They give us guidance and truth. As to apostles and other church leaders.
The restoration is real. Joseph Smith was a true prophet. There is no way the Book of Mormon is false.
Love casteth out fear. I don't know where that came from but it's still true.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Goodnight :)

Testimony #7: Full week of testimony-ing is awesome

Sup inter-guys
I'm wicked tired, (just putting that out there) I don't know what's happened to my sleep schedule, but I best be getting back on in if i know what's good for me :p yup
So, It's my 7th testimony and all I can say is; I FEEL AWESOME!!!
this has been a very good week, I had to do some gnarly stuff that normally, would have done me in.
But not this week! I feel so much love and optimism. I know it's cuz of this bad boy blog.
which it's not really bad, nor boy, nor blog. Wait, it totally is blog. ps "blog" should be used as some kinda adjective. Like your face is so blog right now. and I don't know if it's good or bad, and I think I'm rambling now....and did I say "nor"?
yup sure did. But if anyone is out there on the outs, just start baring your testimony, even if it's to yourself in a journal.  and if you don't have a testimony, you should pray cuz that's also really conducive for like feeling awesome and loved. and just so you know, I like the word conducive, and I'm real tired still....yup
Now ok so I know that I am far from perfect, and I have felt super guilty for all the stuff that I have sinned. and I've been uncomfortable in the church just like I've had times where I'm uncomfortable at work or school. but you guys, the gospel totally makes you feel better. My happiest times and my most spiritual times are always the same times. It's just super cool to be all like comforted and peaceful and junk. I just love the gospel with all my being. (at least I certainly hope so.....I'm really tired...why do i keep bringing that up?)
Its super awesome to know that you have a family looking out for you, and a Father that loves you and a Brother that died for you, just in case you wanted to be all atoned for stuff. I am so lucky to have been born into the gospel, to know that I have potential, to know that good things will work out. I know that we are all loved and our Heavenly Father so desperately wants us all to know that. We are all worth so much, we are all awesome. Life=good :) and I owe everything to my Father in Heaven, to His plan, to my Savior. I have such a testimony of the gospel and it's teachings. I hope I can continue to convey that in these things.
Thanks to anyone who cares :) and also :)
say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen

ok bye!!!!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Testimony #6: um, it's one in the morning....

Hello,
This one is going to be real short because it's 1 in the morning...
But anyway, I have a testimony that the Lord loves and knows me.
I say that a lot, but I know it's true. I know He knows my name and He wants the best for me.
I know He knows what I am capable of.
I know that I can live with Him again if I am worthy.
I know that the church is true.
I have a testimony of the prophets, past and present.
I know that my Redeemer lives. I have a testimony of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. That He sacrificed His life so that I might be able to repent and to live a better life.
I know that I will always have a place to turn to. My Father in Heaven will always be there to listen and to uplift. I know that I am loved, I am so blessed. I know there is work for me to do.
I am so very grateful to know these truths
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Testimony #5: Hmm, what to testify about?

Hello,
I'm not sure what to testify about which is weird because it's Sunday. In church today we were talked to about repentance, the signs of the second coming, and obedience. and those are all good things.
And I really felt a lot of what I was saying yesterday.
It was a good day, Happy Father's Day ps :)
but yea, I know that my Redeemer lives, I know that God the Father is watching over me, I know that I am a daughter of God, I know that this life is just the beginning of my opportunities. I know that the scriptures are a great source of comfort. I know that prayer is a wonderful way to get your days in order. I know I am loved. I know all of you are loved. I have a testimony of the Atonement. I know that we can all repent and be worthy to live with our Heavenly Father again. I know That Jesus is the Christ and that He is our brother and He loves us and is waiting for us to use the gift that He has given us. I know that the Lord has a plan for me.
I know that I should go to bed right now, so, I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

Until tomorrow :)

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Testimony #4: Friends, who I need in my life

Hello,
So I had an amazing day with one of my best friends, I've known her for 6 years now and she is wonderful. When her family was just starting, she said these wonderful words to me "Isn't it great that we were in each others lives right when we needed it." Now I'm not sure if that was verbatim, but that message has stuck with me.
I am so very grateful for that friend and that little piece of truth she shared with me. I've been reminded of that truth in countless situations, and many more relationships that have come my way. What this says to me is that my Heavenly Father knows what I need. He knows who I am. He knows who I can become. He has a plan for me and has prepared a path for me to follow.  He has lined that path with comfort for every trial, support in every uncertainty, help, lessons to be learned, mercy, forgiveness, love and everything else that I need.
I know that he does the same for everyone else!! That if we seek his counsel and will, WE WILL ALWAYS SUCCEED!!!
I am so very grateful for this light that I have been able to realize. I am so very grateful that I have the tools, talents and people in my life to get me to where I need to be.  I am so humbled by what has been shared with me and counseled to me. I know that my Redeemer lives. I know my Father in Heaven knows and loves me. I know that I have a purpose in this life. I know that He wouldn't expect something of me that I couldn't do. I know that I am a daughter of God, and I pray that I can always understand what that means. I hope that I can stay strong and be the support to someone else. That I can let someone know that they are NOT alone.
If you are reading this, (yes you) KNOW that you are worth SO MUCH regardless of where you've been, what you've done, what you've struggled, THE LORD HAS A PATH FOR YOU!!! It may be a path that you've never set foot on, but if you can seek it out YOU WILL BE BLESSED!!! Please anyone, EVERYONE know how special and unique you are, how talented you are, how beautiful/handsome you are, how IRREPLACEABLE you are.  Please believe me!!! Even if we have never met know that there are people in YOUR life, SOMEONE in your life that feels the same. You might not see them, you might not remember them, you might not have even met them yet but I promise you, YOU ARE LOVED!!!!
I would like to thank my Heavenly Father for what He has given me. I know He is guiding me and helping me. I know that I owe everything to him. Literally everything. I know I am capable of accomplishing what he has in store for me. I know even though I've made mistakes, He still cares. He still guides me. He still loves me. Even if I don't know how to punctuate properly.  
I would also like to thank all those in my life; my family, my friends, acquaintances, co-workers, even those of you who are not too fond of me now. :) You have all challenged me. You have all supported me when I needed it. You may have done something that you weren't even conscious of. But know that you have helped me shape my life. You have helped make me who I am. Everyone! You mean so much to me. Please, feel that! I know you were meant for my life. I know that you, my dear brothers and sisters, have stained the bones of my existence.  You will always be, and were always meant to be, a part of my life. Thank you. I pray that I can return the favor. That I can be what you were to me. That I can be worthy of your influence. Thank you Thank you Thank you.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ amen.

until tomorrow :)

Friday, June 17, 2011

Tesimony 3: The church is still true

Hello Internet brothers and sisters,
So I would like to share this experience....ahem
I was in the temple performing baptisms for the dead, and while I was waiting in this most sacred place I had a thought What if I farted in the temple? a silly silly question I know. I should have shrugged it off or whatever but it persisted What if I fart and make it stink...in the temple!? No unclean thing can dwell here, you can't fart in the temple. but someone has done it right? someone must have farted in the temple... and then I'd think don't think these thoughts in the temple!! But no what if I was in the font and I made a bubble? everyone will see that it was me! have reverent thoughts! have reverent thoughts!
and it continued like that for a bit, and while I was battling with myself this bit of revelation came to me
the church would still be true.
and I felt better. And that's my testimony to you all
that no matter what silly thing I think or do. If I screw up royally or if I fall flat on my face. If I throw up on a baby. The church will still be true :)
and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen

oh and ps the following month I heard 2 temple toots, (not mine) and you know what? The church is still true :)
I think that's gonna be my new mantra haha

until tomorrow :)

Testimony #2: dentist prayer

Hello again,
So I'm posting this after midnight so I technically didn't testimony on the 16th, but, I haven't gone to bed yet so I'm counting it :)

So, I would like to bear my testimony about prayer
I even have a story to illustrate it
So I was at the dentist getting a root canal because I have hill-billy teeth
and I have this big ol' rubber dam in my mouth and it's being propped open with one of those wedge thingies
Everything is going alright, and the dentist decides on doing more work and getting it done in one visit instead of two.
and I was like whatever.  Even if I did care, I have a rubber dam in my mouth, I don't have the luxury of verbal protest. So he continues with his work and I continue to drool on myself when I start to feel tingling where I have been numbed. and I thought "oh crap! my mouth is becoming feely again!"
So I try to tell the dentist "I'm starting to feel my tooth" and I point to my mouth but it sounds more like "Au au-e u e u oo" while pointing at my mouth
So  he reaches over and moves the dam a little bit looks at me and says "Is that better?"
and I know that if I do anything besides saying "uh hu" that he will have no idea what I'm saying. So i go "uh hu" and send my brain into a panic while he turns the drill back on
and I mean that drill sound is probably one of the most unnerving sounds I think ever, but it's timed by like a billion when your Novocain or whatever they use is wearing off.
and this is about what I was thinking at that point..."HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP! WHAT DO I DO??? Pray!!!" and I say the quickest of prayers to my Heavenly Father that I won't be able to feel, or that everything will work out, I don't really remember, I just remember praying, and being very sincere
and you know what? I didn't feel a single thing :) the tingling even went away. Probably immediately, I didn't even notice. I was calmer, I was relaxed even. and everything went swimmingly. I said goodbye after my work was done I walked out to my car thanking Heavenly Father in another quick prayer, knowing He had a hand in it. I get to my car and as soon as I sat down my tooth started hurting like a mother! like immediately! and I thought, "I know that was not just my mind, I know that my prayer was heard"
and I still know, I know that my Heavenly Father is there, and that He listens to my prayer and He answers them. I know that anytime I ask in faith I will receive an answer. 
and I leave my testimony with you in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

until tomorrow....er....later today ;)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Day 1: My testimony of testimonies

Hello my Internet brothers and sisters.
Let me start out by saying: The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true!
and also, I LOVE SHARING MY TESTIMONY!!!
Every time I do I feel peace, happiness, love, excitement, hope, gratitude and a whole other mess of things. :)
If anyone out there has a testimony, share it! By all means SHARE IT!!!
I can't tell you how many times my life has been blessed by hearing some one's testimony.
I know that sharing my testimony everyday will bless me (even if I'm the only person who knows this blog exists)
So...let's get to it!

I have a testimony of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints,
I know that this church is the only true church
I know that I have a Savior, my brother, Jesus Christ
I know that He died for my sins, and that I can have the chance to live with my Heavenly Father again.
I know that I am as successful as I am in this life because I have chose to follow Christ's example and walk the straight and narrow path.
I know that though I have made mistakes in my life my Savior has redeemed me through His sacrifice.
I know that through his sacrifice, I can be made whole again
I have a testimony of the Restoration of the church, of Joseph Smith, and every prophet before, and since
I have a testimony of the Book of Mormon
I know the words of the Book of Mormon bring comfort and encouragement
I know that my Redeemer lives.
I know that I am a daughter of God, that he knows my name, he knows my trials
I know that God loves EVERYONE. I know that I have a purpose. I know that I am stronger through Him
I know that He listens to my prayers, I know that he loves me.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen

until tomorrow :)